I like things as it is, as how I'm used to. I don't like it when things are perfectly fine and then all of a sudden, I have to get used to something new. No. I hate it. Although it may become boring after a long while if everything remains as status quo but it has a sense of familiarity. 

If you put me in a venue where I know nobody at all, I'll feel odd. I won't even feel nervous, I'll be like, "goddammit, now I'll have to make new friends and I don't even know if they'll be nice. What if they're totally different from my current friends? What if they're hateful? Oh god, why?"

If somebody walks out of my life, and that somebody is really close to me, someone important... I'll prolly be begging him/her to stay. Sure... there's this thing standing between me and that friend, this stupid thing called pride — most of the times, I'll be too prideful to wanna make up to that friend. At first, I'll prolly just be moody and I'll show an attitude to everybody, maybe cry a little but I won't tell that friend anything. I'll be sad all alone, thinking why must this happen. After a period of time tho, I'll write out this shit long paragraph full of my feelings and I'll send it to him/her, apologizing for being an ass and all. If it constantly happens... then I might just walk away. I won't like it but why should I remain unhappy for a longer period of time just to try to keep you around when I can just leave and start smiling brightly again? Nobody wants to be sad forever right?

I feel that change is shitty. Imagine this: what if it's your loved ones, drifting away from you? Like they don't talk to you as much and when they do, they sound like they would rather be doing something else. You'll feel awfully neglected and no matter how hard you try, you just can't get the old them back. Gosh, that would hurt so so bad.

Yeah sure, there are some instances of change being good but I think that the bad outweighs the good. They always say that it's easier to sway to the bad than the good. I guess it applies to change as well. 

Change is always occurring tho, much to my dislike. Yes, tiny changes could spice things up a bit but... drastic changes are just.... sigh. It's such a turn off for me. Like I said, I like things the way I'm used to.

Maybe... one of the reasons why I don't like change so much is because I'm too lazy to adapt to something new. It takes a lot of time, and most of the time, it would bring much pain and sadness.