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What's Happening?
Saturday, 12 July 2014 || 22:32
How is it that I can manage to keep my thoughts at bay during the day but everything comes crashing down late at night?
God, what is happening? I feel like I'm returning back to my secondary school days, when I live almost everyday in tears. I don't want this, not at all, but I can't help but let the tears flow while I lie in bed, in the cold darkness, thinking of... well... everything.
I wouldn't say school is well. Frankly speaking, it's like shit. I dread going to school every morning, and I can't wait to just dash home straight after school. Why is Ngee Ann so far from home? Why didn't I just choose TP?
And then there's you. I miss you, a whole damn lot. I don't know how I'm supposed to approach you. All I ever do is piss you off, but all I want to do it talk to you. I miss talking to you every second of everyday but I doubt you feel the same way. You feel like letting go, well... you aren't the only one. This hurts. It's so so painful.
You know what's the worst thing ever? When you only find comfort being in the dark.
I can't wait for time to pass, and yet all I want to do is to stop time, let everything stay. I don't want to grow older. I fear the thought of death. I fear the thought of losing you. I fear the thought of one day, I might just forget everything - you, my family, my friends. I don't want to let go of life, not anymore.
They say that everything is fated, that your destiny's already written out. It's scary, how your entire life's already planned out, and you're just the main character in your story, intertwined with others' stories.
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