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Tuesday, 3 February 2015 || 20:22
It's been more than a year
It's as though you've casted a spell on me
I know you don't feel the same about me as you used to
I know I definitely don't feel the same about you as I used to
I think
I used to be obsessed
Not crazily obsessed
But you're always on my mind
No matter what I do
How hard I try
You're just there
Now
I'm still trying my damnedest to keep you out of my head
You still manage to sneak into my head
Like when we have a short conversation
You'll be in my thoughts for the next couple of days
But I'm proud to say I don't think of you as often as before
I still care about you
I find joy when your name lights up on my phone
I feel unhappiness when we argue
I'm happy when you are
I'm sad when you are
But sometimes you're really an asshole
There are times I can't stand the way you act
It's the flaw that stands out the most
But I just can't hate you
Sometimes I think if I could just feel hate for you
I probably wouldn't be in so much pain right now
But I just can't
You're damaged
To what extent
I don't know
I am too
But I can't empathize with you
You're still a mystery
I thought I knew you like the back of my hand
That was 2 years ago
2 years later
You're still a puzzle
Like an unsolvable riddle
I used to think you were made for me
But now...
I can't put myself in your shoes
And vice versa
We have conflicting views
We clash at the slightest things
Like two meteorites crashing into one another
Incompatible
Sadly
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